Guess I got my answer..
How October Jones Passes Time on the Train
Now we see if the feelings are ignored or not…
Vodka Cherry Pokeballs by BigEatsBen
I really don’t know why I don’t exude confidence in myself. I feel like I should have it, but I am always down on myself. I see all these people around me succeed and I don’t do shit but write about it like this. Always wondering if I’ll ever do anything cuz I just complain and don’t show confidence.
I hear all this advice but it just gets me mad since it leads to me changing as a person, but I hate the idea of changing to succeed. But in this selfish piece of shit world you sometimes have to, which sucks. It is why I’m at a crossroads and have mental breakdowns. I don’t know what I want to do, what I was meant to do, I don’t have confidence in myself when I should, and whenever I try to make her happy it gets ignored or it’s not enough. I just don’t know what I fucking want anymore.
Am I depressed? I don’t know, maybe? Am I mad and disappointed in myself for not being confident when I should? Yes. It sadly is just who I am and it sucks, I do and don’t want to change at the same time.
The only person that I feel comfortable talking about is forever gone. I can still talk but I’ll never hear anything back which is what I want.
Fuck the month of April
I really really hate this disconnect we have right now. Not just me, I don’t see effort from you….. I miss honeymoon so much